One only has enough time to be interested in so many things and I didn’t choose what interests me.  It was given to me.  So, the emptiness that I feel in most moments has to do with energies being directed toward the skillful solving of a Rubik’s Cube that has many layers, and the outer and inner-most layers I have to solve at the same time, which is nearly impossible, but I’ve found that the inner-most layer is the only way to solve the outer-most layer, as indirect as it may seem.  And I have to remember that.  Don’t mistake sadness at not being seen for anger at another person for not seeing.